I run

I run,
I run after you.
I run after my happiness like a crazed man in fits of madness. 

I run after the elusive, the unseen, the unfound, I run.

The melancholy,
that swells within my soul's hardened pit,
sharpens the daggers of memories
against the grindstone of my own aging self.

Maybe this time,
it will be different.
Maybe this time,
I will run across the finish line,
to win the champion's wreath.

You ask me if I will run away.
I will run after you.
I will run away with you.
I will run for you.

Will you run away?

Let us both run together,
let's run away. 

The Familiar, the Well-known

The familiar, the well-known,
the company of an old friend.

How your images run in my mind's eye,
laughing, joking, full of life's zest.

I am at peace with you and hope for your return.

Though the spring was sharp in it's sting,
of a lost love's keenness,
I survived and still thrive,
and strive forward.

But you,
you are colorful,
vibrant,
full of mischief and mayhem.

I remember watching you for the first time,
how you made me laugh,
and you still do.

I Am...

I write how I speak,

I speak, how I think,

I think how I am,

I am, how I think.

An ode to an Aquarian

Did I stir your waters by asking your name?

If it means to you all the same,

I shall not ponder, or wonder,

this line of questioning is lame,

as we move on with this lovers' game,

and put others to shame,

for they are too tame, in asking your name.

Things my father told me

You may be worse off than millions,
but you're better off than billions.

If you can help someone and it's not taxing upon you, do so.

Do not worry about what others are saying about you,
just keep doing what you know to be right.

Do you best,
as best as you can,
as much as you can,
as fast as you can,
as soon as you can.

Listen with an open mind and ear to your opposition,
you may learn something new,
or change someone's mind in the process.

Keep at it, slow and steady does win the race.

Forgive and forget,
try to give as much the benefit of the doubt to others.

Goodness and something better is coming,
just wait.

Until now, I had not a reason to love

Until now, I had not a reason to love,
except, for the ever so moments of desire
that compelled me to seek out a version of You.

You, that I was searching for,
in many a sweet smiling, beguiling faces.

Faces, that held a beautiful countenance,
but were depleted of feelings.

Feeling, that I wanted oh so much,
so much to shine,
and make my life bright with joy.

Joy, that I feel when you are around me
joy, that you surround me with.

With you, I am now complete,
and all I had to do,
was walk up to you and say,

Hi, I'm Zak.

A rant about my Android phone

I think my phone is possessed.  At least, that i what I say to myself as I don't fully understand the user interface of many functionalities of my mobile device.

Far be it for me to not appreciate the advances of technology, but when the artificial intelligence borders on the sociopathic behavior, I take umbrage with that to say the least.

While hanging out with a friend, I decided to have him take a few pictures of me, just for my social media campaign. Google photos decided to compile a very sophisticated montage of all my snapshots and alerted me to it.  A gift that it gleefully (cybernetic craziness is more like it) presented to me.

I am getting begrudgingly used to the frequent eavesdropping and interruptions by Google search bar; how it actively listens to my conversations. However, I draw the line at a stage 5 clinger/stalkerish present given to me by my sentient phone.

I mean C'mon now !!! What's next, Google phone screening my phone calls, going through my contacts and giving me pointers on whom to date, how to dress, what to do with my life?

No way, I have a mother for that.